Be Happy

2011-09-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my first day as a full time agent and it coincides with me having no maid.so this is a diary of of my first day.

5 am. Sahur
630am. Cook macaroni for breakfast n chicken for lunch
715am. Sent aqil to school and straight to office
830am. Arrive office n start doing paperwork
900am. Meeting.last week activities.this week.problems n target to achive.
12am. Meeting ends
12 to 2pm. Pry and paperwork
2pm. Rush to UTM
6pm. End of app.Case close.New relative found
7pm. Arrived at office
720pm. Buka puasa alone....feeling so lonely
745pm. Start meeting
10pm. End of meeting.brain was so active,alert,stimulated from the talk from top agent.felt so energetic I have carry on another 12 hours.
1030pm. Reached home feeling so satistied.zikry sleeping already.missing him so much.
1130pm. Sleep like a log.

What a day for me....but with passion I have all the energy.may god bless me with good health. Mentally n physically so that - can achieve my dream.

Ps this only for monday.tuesday to thursday no meeting just appointments.

Raya 2011

2011-09-09T17:10:00.000+08:00

To overcome fear is to take action.

2011-09-06T12:00:00.003+08:00

I am in my new office now.A big spacious office with bathroom attached.I am actually on the 2nd floor of my 2.5 storey house.I am an insurance agent now.From a comfortable life of a lecturer ....i went into a difficult business of selling insurance and takaful.

Why....to avoid from me turning mad.I need something to occupied/challenge/stimulate my mind and this business which is simple but not easy is giving me all this.

To overcome fear is to take action.That is what I am doing ...take action in my life.

Happy...yes..very much.This life is the kind of life that i always dream off.....much better than my already bliss life as a lecturer.

Obstacles......a lot......

May Allah swt bless my hijrah.

Here I go

2011-07-15T10:53:00.003+08:00

I read this in the toilet this morning....( a bit grosskan...the toilet part)

Okay lets try again.

Morning reading information from Adam Khoo's book. The formula of success people.

1.Must have goal

2.Strategy

3.Action

Extra pointers....must BELIEVE u can achieve it.Believe is an On button and your goal must be consistent with your life values.

Zaki and football

2011-07-11T09:41:00.007+08:00

He is with Puchong Rovers FC.His first tournament. Wearing jersey No 2.

Zaki in action.

He suddenly looked very tall and handsome in this photo.

I think it is not easy being zaki.Being no3 (middle child but can also be considered as only child because 4 years gap with no 2 and 5 years gap with no 4) he is always to be blamed for everything.When he fight with nabila he will be blamed and he kept on arguing why he and not Nabila.So last Saturday night I told him the rules in the house.Whenever there's a fight the olders will be blamed....so zaki gaduh dgn nabila...zaki kena.Aqil gadul dengan zaki...aqil kena...akmal gaduh dengan zaki...akmal kena.Zaki gaduh dgn zikry...zaki kena...yang untung will be zikry....because dia yang kecil sekali.He seemed to understand it....what i hope to convey is that we are not pilih kasih kat nabila...but that is the general rules.

2011-06-14T11:28:00.003+08:00

The location:Hyatt Kuantan

The camera:Sis 4 new camera

The cameraman: Firzana or is it sis 3.

2011-06-06T16:26:00.002+08:00

You will never change your life until you change something you do daily - Mike Murdock

My Tomek and tomel tomel

2011-05-26T12:25:00.000+08:00

I want....

2011-05-25T16:53:00.004+08:00

It's stressful reading your blog said sis 1.....alamak ye ke?

And the tittle of the blog is Be Happy.Should be writing about happy stuff but life as a lady with 5 children ranging from 17 years old to 21 months old toddler can be quite hectic.

But life is not bad at all actually.Beside having to deal with Akmal and Aqil typical teennagers needs...zaki yang dont seemed to realise what is happening around him....nabila with all her eagerness in everthing.And Zikry zikry zikry....the house is so meriah with him ..running around ...climbing chairs and table....screaming on top of his voice and kicking ball around the house too I still manage to read....but in the toilet again....at home must give attention to children and the children's dad too....I still have time to do padicure...during our usual long lunch break after lunch at nasi padang restaurant with Christine and Linda.Call mak cik urut to my house and do the whole body urut.That was heaven.Manage to do two jobs.Do gardening and sleep like a log.

I hardly watch TV but I did not miss it.

Thanks to bibik...I dont have to iron ,sweep floor or cook during weekdays...and all the thousands house work.

I want more time to tend to my garden.Buy gps.Buy more clothes.Buy new lipsticks.Did not cancel the facial again next week.Buy new tudung.HAve good lunch with good friends.Exercise more.Register for nabila's extra mandarin class.Find ustaz yang boleh datang rumah for me and the children mengaji. Start buying baju raya for the kids and planning for Dec Holiday.Dreaming of going to Hong Kong with the children or Surabaya or Sandakan to see orang hutan....and and to achive the star club!!!!!

Perth 2nd to 5th February 2011

2011-04-24T21:28:00.002+08:00

More phuket photos.

2011-04-24T20:41:00.002+08:00

Coral island in phuket is just ao lovely with the clear water.Must go there again and spent few days there.Picture above akmal swimming looking at the fishes....
I like this photo of Nabila.
We took tuk tuk from phuket town all the way up to Patong.It was scarry with all the busses and cars around us.
Akmal and aqil tried the MPV and they really love it.Who would'n kan.

Phuket Dec 2010

2011-04-21T12:14:00.001+08:00

Elephant Ride in Phuket Dec 2010

2011-04-21T12:08:00.003+08:00

At last manage to post picture from phuket.All of us on top of the elephants.

About zaki

2011-04-12T12:31:00.005+08:00

Maybe that is what happening in zaki's creative head.

Updates on Zaki. For weeks I stopped teaching or asking zaki to do his school work because its just so difficult making him sit down and do his work....he got distracted with the kura kura...went into the kitchen to get a glass of water and never turn up at the table again. So I end up scolding him.I dont like to be angry at him and he felt sad too saying that mommy marah zaki aje. So told hubby that I will only continue when I know how to handle him. Therefore since he is easily distracted by everything around him and getting info from the internet on how to handle kids like him I decided to move our study area from the dining table to the study room.Moved his table to the middle of the room so that I can sit in front of him.Put all the toys away. He has 2 books on the table...its a 365 days fun activies book and a puzzle books.His magic pen and few others. He arranged every thing very very neatly.I think he is the kind who cannot see things not arrange properly...for eg I bought UNO cards...we played together and after that he started to arrange the cards by colour...which he should not be doing since we want the cards to be all mix up...but he like to arrange it by colours. So first day we did science and it was a success.He did quite a lot of exercises. Last night he did his math homework.I did not sit with him but I am nearby.He did one question on a rough paper the he colour ever one of the numbers with different kind of colour from the magic pen.He did that for every question.Its nice but its too time consuming...at the end he did not finish the work because he and nabila got distracted with the activity book and the puzzle book on his table.That 's it...the activity book and the puzzle book cannot be on his table any more. So for tonight experiment....his table should be clear of everything...no books and no magic pen etc etc...just the homework and the stationeries. The aim is for him to sit still long enough to finish his task and mommy kena banyak bersabar and no one end up sleeping feeling very sad.

About distraction Aqil once 16 yrs old once told me he cannot attend tuition at people's house because he will see for eg a lady maybe the mother and start thinking whether the mother is garang or not and blah blah.....so he be in his world and tuition entah ke mana dah.

About everyone

2011-04-08T11:06:00.004+08:00

ME At the moment my mind is so occupied...I love it....but one rejection on Tuesday...and i am still thinking about it.Not good not good....bounce back quickly su...let it go. HUBBY Moved office to shoplots in front of our house.So lucky of him.On Wednesday we went on a secret trip.Me ...hubby and zikry.Just to be away from everything else....to look at the sea...played with zikry.It was just a half day trip but it was nice. AKMAL Mommy why sometimes I have memory lapse......I dont like it when he is so stress with his studies...i told him..make the lesson interesting and dont worry you will do well in SPM.He represent his college for tennis...join the swimming team..... AQIL With him my motto now is...you dont listen to me..then I dont want to listen to you too. He went for tuition for 6 subjects...including pengajian islam that cost me rm30 per hour...told him....how hard i have to work to get all the money to pay for his tuition. He played football on free afternoon ...On tuesday he go to school in the morning...tuition kat sekolah sampai ptg then sambung tuition sendiri until 10.30pm. Thursday will be his piano class....after all the nagging to learnt to play guitar ,drum etc etc..i then agree to sent him for piano.Won second place for go kart competition last month...dah berangan nak masuk trainning go kart pulak....can i said....but find your own money to pay the fees. He is actually a good boy...but I expect him to study harder. ZAKI Just discovered that he got flat feet.....not sure what we should do about it...maybe thats the reason he complaint about sakit kaki all the time?...I think he is having ADD too.Attention Deficit Deficiency...something like that....tapi mild aje lah.He susah nak complete task.ada aje distractionnya.Nampak kura kura dia...dia sibuk main kura kura.Kemas buku entah kemana.....I still did not find ways how to teach him.We naik darah bila ajar dia.Maybe in his room and put away his pets and toys supaya dia tak distracted.Read about it in the internet. I just read with him everynight. NABILA Talked to her teacher this morning....did not talk much mandarin....teacher told her friend to talk in mandarin with her and not english....teacher said she refused to talk in malay.Teacher asked whether at home we speak english only. No we speak malay at home....but I knew she did not understand satu dua tiga....asked me in english....will she be confuse with all the languages throw at her....no lah she's bright .....thought of taking her out of vital years and go to mandarin reading class....but she loves vital years...they call her princess there but her english is good already. ZIKRY Still not talking at 18 months...should i be worried? Zaki started talking at age 3 .so waitlah dulu. GARDEN What happen to all my guppies in the pasu teratai...I saw one only. I need to baja my pokok pokok and hubby need to trim the grass.

Am I ?

2011-03-25T15:03:00.002+08:00

Aqil my 16 years old told me that I pressured him into studying and he said his mom's friends never pressured them and his friends did well in exam. So I shouldn pressure him to study and he will do well.

Am I pressuring him?I discuss with him how to study...I showed him how the questions are all almost the same every year.I even read for him his literiture book for him.I reminded him from time to time not to waste time since PMR is very very near.

With that piece of info from aqil I went around the house asking everyone including hubby whether I pressure them or not.

Conclusion....at the moment I stopped telling aqil and zaki to study....just sit with nabila with her homework and hubby too...stop asking him to do things faster.

Happy everyone?

Ulam Ulam

2011-03-23T11:26:00.002+08:00

I am into vegetable gardening nowadays.So into ulam ulam.So we have ulam raja,sabung nyawa and other vegetable like pokok turi,bendi ,lada and terung.Will continue to plant more vege.

Zikry feeding the fish

2011-03-23T11:12:00.002+08:00

Its his routine almost every morning to follow us to sent his brother to school then breakfast with mommy daddy..then feed the fish...bye bye daddy to work...play football with mommy or bibik then bye bye to mommy.He is my adorable baby.

Perth 2nd to 5th February 2011

2011-02-16T16:31:00.002+08:00

I decided to follow hubby for a trip to perth.He is the tour leader for a group of 40 staff for their family day in Perth.

In Changi Airport- I was regretting following hubby because all 5 children are at 3 different places....its school holiday and I should be with them.Sis 3 will pick up Akmal at subang airport.Aqil is with mak long going back to Muar.Zaki with sis 3 also.Nabila is with sis 4 to go back to muar also and zikry is with bibik at sis 3.

In the plane - tired only sleep a few hours the night before...bbq dinner and woke up at 3 am did not help....but just can't sleep in the plane....still feeling a bit guilty for leaving the kids.Told hubby next time I wont leave the kids during school holiday.

Perth - Excited being in Perth again......remember how I love Perth very much.....how everything is much slower pace than Malaysia.....not many people....the open area....with parks every where...people cycling....clean Swan river...the orang puteh.....the quiet town at 6pm.....no more feeling guilty...but feeling so lucky to be in Perth again.Hehehe

It was a standard Perth package....the wild park...harbour town...kings park....swan valley...chocolate factory...mac nut factory...cruise....manage to see dophins...

I did not buy any souvenirs...between the two of us..this is the 5th time we been to Australia and the kids told us they did not want anymore baju negara....hahahah...they had a lot of tshirts with the country's name on it...and they hate it so at harbour town we bought them sport t shirt.I managed to meet my old friend Ashley...he was my host the first time I was in Perth.

What I like best about the trip...is me walking by the swan river at night...then sit under the stars watching the opera on warm summer night.

If I have lots of money I will buy a house in Perth and I wish my children to study in Perth so that I can visit them .

Phuket 2010 Part 4

2011-02-16T16:24:00.002+08:00

We spent the rest of the time at Coral beach by sitting on stones looking at clear water with fish swimming around...boys getting bold and wanting to snorkel without life jacket and me feeling so panic....maybe I should go back to swimming lesson.

That night we spent one more time at Patong..eating dinner at an Indian restaurant...

Overall I do have a good time in Phuket...even penat melayan the children ...it's one memories that all 6 of us will not forget...hopefully when the children semua dah besar they will tell their children about the phuket trip and had fond memories of it.

Phote will be posted later.

Zikry at 18 months

2011-02-14T13:54:00.000+08:00

Phuket 2010 Part 3

2011-01-14T11:00:00.003+08:00

Lets continue my writing.

Next destination was Maya Beach...this is where they filmed The Beach...by leonardo Decaprio.We have 2 options here...go to the beach or just snorkel around the ferry.Akmal and aqil wanted to swim around the ferry.The water was clear and the surrounding high stone was just awesome.The org puteh started jumping into the sea from the ferry. But daddy said NO...all go to Maya Beach.I can feel their frustration.Akmal n aqil can swim very well...no problem...swimming with life jacket is no fun at all...but it's mommy and daddy yang tak strong swimmers and we are not confident we can help them if anything turn difficult.Sis 1 had the same problem with her daughter...whereby she too wanted to swim without life jacket ... at phi phi island too and wanted to use the flippers.Sis 1 allowed her to swim without life jacket but the life jacket had to be near her.

So we had a swim at Maya beach and aqil requested to swim without life jacket...oklah I gave in.The sand is like powder ...so white and smooth...and the water is quite high.Akmal n aqil swim quite far away from us...enjoying swimming without life jacket.

We boarded the ferry again....by the way I am the most covered person on board....others.. from youngsers to nenek all wear bikini...no swim suit..just bikini.

Then another hour to phi phi island...we had lunch on board...and at phi phi island...we walked and walked to a mosque..pry then walked and walked back to ferry...no time at all to jalan jalan.

Then it's 2 hours back to Phuket....it was a nice blue sky day....sitting on the deck was a spendid exprience.The wind blowing to your face.....the blue sky...blue sea...music playing....it was just awesome.Next time I am at the dentist and the dentist start grilling my teeth....I will remember me sitting on the ferry feeling so calm and happy.

Zaki and Nabila can be quite restless...one minute on the deck ..next in front of the ferry....then wanting to be at the side of the ferry...which is quite dangerous for small children.Akmal and aqil....they found a spot that they like at the side of the ferry with leg danggling out and looking at the open blue sea....they sure enjoyed it.At the end all 6 of us...lepak at the front of the ferry....(by the way....way at the muncung of the ferry lots of bikini people sun bathing )

We reached phuket at about 6 pm and Dan was there waiting for us....dinner dinner please..we are hungry...so another round of sea food tomyam....for us.

I was imagining my last day at phuket will be spending leisurely..looking at hotels and hubby meeting the local agents...ending with Fantasea at night....BUT NO....hubby said...another day of snorkelling ...this time at Coral Island...nearer to Phuket.One of the agents wanted to show us the Coral island for one company outing. FOC for hubby but others have to pay RM100 perperson including lunch but not snorkelling equipment.Wah ..I am feeling tired already thinking about it.

Day 4

So we went to a pier near Patong beach to get a boat to Coral island...just 10 minutes away.When aqil heard that it was a speed boat...he was smilling happily.The ferry yesterday was too slow he said.

We arrived at the island.The sand was white...clear water also...more asian tourist like japan and korean and less european.

Hubby was busy with the agent....so all 4 kids looked at me.Mommy get the snorkelling equipment...mummy what are we doing here...will we go to other island or not???questions and questions when I was just getting my bearing of the island and trying to enjoy the welcoming drink.pening !!!!

OK lets get the equipment...2 snorkelling sets...4 lifejackets....sun deck"s cover....I have a lots of things to carry and children to looked after.....so we walked to the right of the beach....me opening the plastic cover for the equipment...trying to set the beach chair...suddenly aqil said....lets go the other side??? WHAT???We are here one minute and you are so restless and cannot sit still....mommy dah jadi mommy monster!!!

Okay...it's actually like this....its a full day at Corul island...you find a spot...beach chair....sit under the sun ...reading or just relaxing...if you have kids....they should be happily making sand castle.....near you...the teenagers should be snorkelling nearby....swimming within the area you are allowed to swim....with the life jacket.

BUT my picture is like this...nabila hanging her dear life to me...not wanting to go..esp when she saw ikan todak coming to us for the bread....akmal gaduh dengan zaki..because zaki jerit jellyfish kat akmal and akmal terperanjat.Me marah akmal for being kasar to the brother...and aqil tak sudah sudah nak pergi the other side of the beach...I said sana ke sini ke sama aje....mommy pening and dok kat beach chair...tutup muka and tak nak layan anyone......hehehe anyway to cut story short..at the end...me and hubby had a good snorkelling..white akmal and aqil fell asleep on the beach chair while zaki and nabila playing with the sand.

Phuket 2010 part 2

2011-01-11T13:49:00.002+08:00

So the ATV...Akmal and Aqil really had a good time.They came back dirty but full of exciting stories of driving the ATV in semi jungle.Thank you mommy...was said a few times.

We are really hungry by then then we quickly asked Dan the driver to bring us for tom yam lunch.So off we went to Challong Bay for a nice lunch of sea food tom yum kong...omellete,prawns and vege.

After the late lunch we were off to see Kata beach and Patong beach...no good place for children said Dan of Patong beach.

We passed through nice hotels and the boys asked me...why aren't we staying here?I said if we stayed at that hotel...and that will be the only activities in Phuket...staying in the hotel...hehehe

We reached our hotel late...I am feeling very very sleepy but the children had other agenda...they are hungry again....so out the bread and the maggie...and to get hot water you need to go to the restaurant and they will give you hot water in an antic teapot.so its the boys job to go down .

Day 3

Hurray ...its snorkelling time.Dan picked us up and sent us to the jetty for phi phi island.He booked for us 3 islands package with lunch fro 1500 baht perperson. Wah it was all orang putih every where.We boarded a 3 storey ferry ...awesome..they wanted to sit on the high deck but it;s full. We were served biscuit and coffee on arriving....and after 40 minutes we reached Khai island.To reached the island you had to board a long boat.Snorkelling equipment were provided.We bought bread for the fish also.Akmal and Aqil enjoyed snorkelling very much.Zaki was scared at all the fishes and as he swan he pushed aways all the fish.Hubby was bitten by the fish too.Me...I snorkelled too and really enjoyed seing all the fish.After 1 haour we boarded the ferry again.

Phuket 2010 Part 1

2011-01-06T13:18:00.003+08:00

We went to Phuket from 25th Dec to 29th Dec.It was tsunami anniversary so Samantha already booked my blackberry,Christine my new net book(lost the netbook even before going to phuket.It was just a 2 week relationship with the netbook)and Linda my one beautiful tudung and longchamp wristlet that sis 3 purchased for me from Paris. They are my best friend that cannot wait to see the end of me......

So we pack clothes for 6 people into 3 bags for 5 days and 4 nights stay....quite goodkan ..why 3 bags?because tn hj only pay for 3 bags....I brought along only one silk night dress that is small and easy to handwash everday...and told the teenagers that if they did not have enough clothes we can always sent to the laundry.(Aqil took advantages of my statement and wanted to sent his jeans and t shirt.So I end up washing his and akmal t shirt and sent his jeans to the laundry)

The children seemed to be hungry all the time so...reached LCCT hungry...when to eat ice cream..then hungry again...so Mc Donald....board the plane ...hungry again ...so we ordered food in the plane.

Reached Phuket at 8.30pm..i think...somebody waited for us at the airport...aqil was excited to see people flashing his dad 's name at the airport.

Drive to Phuket town where our hotel was...45 minutes...in a van....I was dissapointed to see phuket ....all the small shoplots...just like Parit Jawa in Muar.

When travelling with the children age 16,14,10 and 5...I became mother,teacher,dictionary,encylopedia,cnn,etc etc etc...you got what I meant...they asked me lots and lots of questions....why is this like this why is that like that....the 16 and 14...favourite questions will be...why aren't we ...do this and that....so it can be quite tiring for me....to explain and to argue with the teenagers.

We reached our hotel.3 star but clean.Near the mosque in the phuket town.You have amo staying there and reading Lonely Planet Southeast Asia on a Shoestring Travelguide kind of tourist.We booked 2 rooms...a must now that the kids all grown up.

Day 1

My husband is a travel agent but on day 1 we wanted to be Dora the explorer...to explore Phuket on our own.We looked at the map to go to the bus station...the shopping area around phuket town...and started walking....a few steps....jomlah sewa keta (akmal)...where are we going (Aqil)....my leg hurts..I can't walk(zaki).....where can I buy toys(nabila)

We just continue walking until we are near Robinson shopping area..we just through some shops...and aqil wanted a crash helmet for his future bicycle race...akmal wanted a branded bags...and zaki and nabila wanted toys.God....guys we are here NOT to shop but sightseing on a shoestring!!

At the end I only entertained toys for nabila and zaki.A very cheap one.

We walked out of the shopping complex and taxi man approached us to bring us along.400 bath to patong ..stopped at honey shop...pearl....elephant....so we hopped in his car...with the big open space behind..what did u call that...

So we went to the honey shop....then go to the elephant ride.I already plan to do 2 activities.One on land and another in the sea..so elephant ride is in the list.It cost us 800 bath per person for 30 minutes ride...zaki and nabila free.....it was high and scary for me....felt like falling off but it was a good experience.

At home everyone was saying I was crazy paying that much for an elephant ride...yelah tak ada kat malaysia so I dont mind lah...and my friend said her friend's gajah when mengamuk and start running fast....OMG nasib baik that did not happened to me.Anyway my roommate Sam...was laughing half crazy and saying that if I am dead because of falling from the elephant she will be so happy to get my black berry but I told her sorry in my will stated there she only get my bb if I am dead by the tsunami...not elephant ride...she said NO..as long as I am dead she get the bb....but i say No...so we argue for quite sometime...but at the end I won because Iam still alive..not dead by the elephant or the tsunami.

After the elephant...Dan the driver said....you want ATV..yes yes....apalagi remaja 2 orang pun suka sungguh lah.

So we went to this place where they got go kart..shooting range and ATV...890bath 30 minutes ATV...since go kart you got it here in malaysia and cheaper..the boys can only try the ATV..mommysaid.

to be continued....

This and that

2010-11-12T08:51:00.003+08:00

Daddy gi ambik Akmal semalam...so today petang I will be seing him.

Akmal yang penuh drama.

Before exam he was into Liga Hoki dia...main sampai mulut kena jahit kena bola hoki.6 jahitan katanya.Dengan mulut berjahit dok main juga lagi....kejap aje dia kata ..sebab coach tak bagi lama lama ...bila bukak jahitan.sambung main lagi...cukup seronok bila menang dengan Uitm....Uitm??? macamana budak form 4 boleh lawan dengan budak college. At 16 dia memang tak tau takut punya......semalam dengarnya main jet ski dengan daddy and aqil kat Penang...terbalik jet ski nya.....entah macamana dia ni.....tengah raging hormonlah agaknya.....ni cuti ...be readylah for go kart etc etc...I know I will ajak him jungle tracking banyak banyak to burn out all the energy tu.

Aqil dalam pencarian

I pushed and pushed Aqil to study for his exam...and I doa and doa juga.A new method I wanted him to try was to type all the notes like sejarah and geography.I heard it in the radio somebody used this method....so cubalah....this is better than reading yang membosankan.So he type and type his notes....resultnya ada perubahan sikit....taklah fail macam dulu.

He is into bicycle fixie....pening kenapa ni asyik dengar dia nagging pasal basikal fixie ni.Akhirnya dia berkenalan dengan taukeh kedai basikal yang baru bukak...dia order sendiri...nak bayar dgn duit raya and duit birthday dia....tiap tiap hari gi kedai tu and bawak kawan kawan berbasikal ke kedai tu for repair.I told him to asked the uncle to let him watch uncle assemble the bicycle....at least belajar something.....the bicycle is not cheap...paling murah RM600 and it does not help when the friends and his cousins all own bicycle yang paling murah rm650.I told him I can only provide him the basic bicycle of RM200 any extra kena cari sendiri.Even my Lerun pun second hand...tak mampu nak beli yang brand new.

I told him nak barang barang standard..result periksa nad sembahyang pun kena standard jugak.

Dia dah start tuition form 3...gi kul 6...7.20 I kena ambik dia uutk ke masjid sembahyang magrib sebab tuition centre yang majority cina tu tak ada surau...then 10.20 kena ambil balik....so dia sorang aje adalah 6 kali ulang alik ...... for 2 nights a week.Ni gilir gilir dengan hubbylah.

Zaki yang tak tahu...

Zaki semua tak tahu........still suka melalak macam baby...tak boleh beralah dengan Nabila...so kerja nya gaduhhhhh aje dengan nabila.Cuti sekolah ni tema nya..cuti membaca.....so ada hari yang electronik...maknanya boleh main game...and tengok tv or
internet...ada hari yang semua tu tak ada....but they must read books.Zaki dah habis satu buku BM dapatlah seringgit.

Next year std 5...kena hantar tuition ke? oh yes ...seminggu lepas akmal kena jahit mulut...zaki kena jahit kat bawah dagu...jatuh kat sekolah.....mommy dia ni dah lemah dah dengar jahit jahit ni....

A month ago me and hubby dah gi survey satu islamic international school yang kecil for zaki.....not an academically inclined students dia dok kelas yang tak berapa bersemangat...so dia tak bersemangat so takut dia tak berconfident pulak nanti...so nak cari sekolah yang lebih holistic untuk dia.....tapi sekolah yang we all tengok .....semua ok nampaknya...dunia and akhirat balance ...tapi some of the kelas tak ada tingkap...yelah kat area kedaikan...so mommy yang mesra alam ni tak rasa bestlah pulak....to me sekolah...maknanya padang...lari lari sepuasnya.....
So sampai sekarang mommy daddy....tak tau nak cari sekolah kat mana lagi...

Nabila yang penuh pertanyaan

Mommy tak sempat fikir pasal nabila lagi....meaning hal tahun depan nabila.Setahun kat pre school tu ...i dont see any mandarin.....dia dah di daftarkan kat sek keb cina.....adakah kekal disekolah tu or cari yang betul betul mandarin medium instruction....sekarang ni...english medium instruction tapi mandarin as a subject and ramai melayu pulak.....

What I should do ialah go around with her to find other suitable school

Zikry the footballer...

I miss zikry..miss miss dia sangat...ialah melayan segala hal..zikry asyik dok dengar bibik aje....dia pandai sepak bola and memang outdoor punya budak....dia gongcang pintu nak main kat luar...and he hit the ball like a pro.....

We sometime miss him very much ....that we carry him to sleep with us....in the morning we have zaki and nabila also on the bed....hei manja manja semuanya.

ME ? Embarking on new challenges....excited but scared.....

Terry Fox Run November 2010

2010-11-11T12:37:00.002+08:00

Enjoy the photos.

Zoo Trip

2010-11-01T11:16:00.002+08:00

It was a sunny Sunday.I supposed to walk with sis 1 in the morning but I cancelled it due to me wanting to sleep late after staying at Kelana Jaya TH for so late. Need to sent bibik for her monthly outing with her daughter.Hubby needed to berurut for his back pain.

Me... I will be left at home with the kids ...with no car....so what should I do....why not go to the zoo.Nabila never been to our zoo and somemore hubby is going to that area for berurut.

So called sis 4 for I needed to borrow he son and daughter to play with Nabila and Zaki.Woke Aqil up ....said we are going to KL...he took his bath and dress up so quickly...then asked me..."where are we going mommy? Zoo ...I said.Then Aqil said...can I go back to sleep?hahhaha....no Aqil cannot...being a teenager..I think he will prefer the shopping complex.

On the way and also until today...I got parents calling me and asking me...why tak pick up my children too....hahaha....maybe next time I take the van and go round BK to pick up children for weekend activities...so that their parent can be free of the children and can go shopping.

So we went ....I had a good time....I love the giraffes...the children behaved well since they all ada gang to play along.Aqil bising sikit but I told him to learn to enjoy what you have in front of you and not to nag and nag and complaints.Even Zikry bahaved well.

We spent about 5 hours there until hubby finished all his errant and pick us up.

I was tired but enjoyed myself until in the car aqil said....can we go swimming /taman cabaran in putra jaya/shopping complex in the afternoon.He really menguji kesabaran..I said It's already petang and I am not planning to go anywhere but dinner later.

How was your weekend?

Simple beauty.....

2010-10-27T10:22:00.000+08:00

.....from my garden.

My teratai

2010-10-25T14:45:00.002+08:00

I now have guppies among my teratai and last week I saw three murai drinking from my bowl.My heart leap with joy!!Every one or two days I peep in the bowl just to make sure the guppies are still there...

My teratai is white with a shade of blue...I saw it in the public pond and my hubby pulled it out for me.I live to have the dark purple teratai.

Jack

2010-10-22T15:22:00.002+08:00

Jack is my new friend from Beijing.Jack is actually Ashley's friend.Ashley is my friend from Perth. Ashley came to Malaysia in September with his Philipino wife Sue . I invited Ashley to my house for dinner and he brought along Jack. Jack and Ashley met in Beijing...Ashley was lost in beijing and got to know Jack who end up being his guide in Beijing. So when Ashley came to Malaysia for seminar Jack came down to malaysia also so they met up and went around Kl and Malacca.

Then three of them had dinner at my house.

It turned out that Jack is very interested about Islam.He and Ashley even visited a mosque in Malacca and Jack in looking for english translation of quran. He asked me if I am muslim and when I said yes...he said assalamualaikum....and continue with other phrases that I don't know ...so I looked at my hubby and hubby said...dia kata ..apa khabarlahhh.....ohhhh....and when he talked to Nabila...a lot of arabic words came out including alhamdulliah.

We had a nice chat and at the end of it I promised to sent Jack the english translation of quran to him.

So we exchange e mail from time to time and the quran was posted to him.On his last e mail he wrote with 2 languages...both in english and arabic.......and I felt soooooooo embarrass because it looked like Jack is so eager to learn arabic and he expect me as a muslim will know arabic too but the reality is that it never cross my mind to learn arabic...even thou I am muslim.

Malu malu malu....

p/s....looking forward to go to Beijing because now ada jack that can show me around.

My weekend

2010-10-18T14:20:00.003+08:00

A walked among the trees was badly needed by me after weeks by weeks of open houses...so when sis 1 called on friday night wanting friends to walked with her I quickly said yes.This time we went to The Hill as it is called in Taman Tun.Hubby ,Aqil,zaki,zikry and zana...followed us but except for zana the rest spent time at the playground with sis 1 me and zana take a 45 minutes walked at the hill.The walked and the talked made us feel fresh and good.
Then for lunch we had wedding to attend.Only Nabila was interested to join.Upon leaving told Aqil and Zaki to study for coming exam but knowing zaki without me sitting next to him...he wont be studying.I came back from the wedding he showed me his creation.The lego land had been moved to the toilet as above picture.He must had spent hours in the toilet but he did not take his bath as he should be after playing at the playground.Zaki...zaki...

Sunday saw me and hubby going to Forum keluarga title..Cabaran mendidik generasi Y .Antara rumah dan sekolah.Yes..lately I was overwhelmed by the generation Y and Z that I have.They test my kesabaran...and as usual to find solution I seek to reading about it or attend forum as this.As I said to my husband.Maybe we cannot use our parent as model anymore because time is changing and the new generations is so different from us.Furthermore I like Ustaz Hasrizal style of ceramah.Tak jemu and I can see that he is a reader...from his ceramah....since he studied in Jordon and stayed in Uk and Ireland for quite sometime..his experience is very refreshing.

What did I get from the talk.....

Time change and we have to find knowledge and ways to didk anak....so our parent memang not a good model for us to bring up our children.For example..if you our parent said..sembahyang...and we just follow and pray...but not kids nowadays...they questions a lot and we must be prepared to answer their questions.Treat them as a complete person.

If you dont spent time shaping your children then environment will shape them.We control technologies and not let technologies control us.

Apa lagi ye....somehow after listenning to tak talk I sort of respect my children better...will try listen to them ...and answer their questions....children are full of questions so we parent must not brush it off.....

So after asar we decided to entertained the children by bring them to taman cabaran putrajaya...with 2 bicycles,one skateboard...one skooter and a nephew and niece....and on the way ada lagi yang nak ikut but sorry kereta dah full to the max.

They has skate board area and bicycle trails and this mommy of five suddenly fely very energetic and cycle and eager to try the bicycle trail but suddenly realise she is not 14 anymore....but she tried the bmx also.....hahahaha...reached home ..wow..sakit sakit semuanya..and tuan haji dah bising......but we had fun.

Above is me with my new bike.

Now Zikry is one year old he is allowed outside the house more often.First trip to tesco...first trip to the playground too.He is really an outdoor person....loves to run and kick ball.He can play balls with his brother and you should see him running after the ball.In swimming pool he is also a natural..So mommy daddy be prepared for Zikry.The routine nowadays is sending nabila ngaji at 6pm..bring zikry along to the park.....he will just run around till his heart content.

Extra stories about my garden...

The water plant above....now I have guppies in there ...no more ubat for nyamuk...because birds dranks from and it and one murai dead already and hubby called me "bird killer"...so now welcome birds to your new ....new what?....drinking area....

Suddenly I realised something is in the bird house and zaki once told me he saw bird tail in the hole....I will investigate soon.

Universal Studio Singapore

2010-10-13T13:46:00.004+08:00

On the fourth of raya we drove to Singapore and stayed a night at Grand Hyatt near Orchard Road .Then the next day we went to Universal Studio Singapore.
I was not well on that day.I had gastrik.So it was not fun for me...at the end I was tired and I can't even walked anymore.It was too hot and too uncomfortable for me.

The children enjoyed it very much and I felt glad that they get to see for example the 3d shreak movie since it is the same one as the one in Gold Coast and how I felt so sad watching it alone when I was in gold coast last time.So watching it again with the children so satisfying for me.

I wish I can go to USS again and enjoyed it more this time around.

Raya 2010

2010-10-08T15:07:00.004+08:00

Raya was very tiring for me...chasing after Zikry.There is no place for him to run around without making any damages.Since baru dapat kaki he non stop walked around the house and the same time grabbed everything that is within his hand.Since mom's place is not child proof ..it was

a difficult situation.He grab ornaments,cookies containers etc etc.Bro in law's house did not help also with split level and stairs.Raya at rengit will see him wanting to eat and drink everything and also grabbed and throw everything that he can. So I am tired and feeling like wanting to go back to my house in KL.

Enjoy the photos of my children yang dah besar besar semuanya.

No Wonder Girls VU Night 2010

2010-10-07T10:59:00.002+08:00

You know something.....I dance during VU night.....lama tak buat kerja ni...the last time I dance was way back in A level...puteri 7....and suddenly now this hajjah said ok I am in.

So we had a great time practicing to the beat of....Nobody nobody but U by Wonder girls....susah juga nak ingat steps...so I create my own story so that I remember the steps...

During the Night..everything went on smoothly..with the students all cheering at us....

My garden

2010-10-06T09:05:00.002+08:00

Took the photo yesterday...just trying to shot the photo of my garden from different angle so it look more pro.....I like the outcome.Enjoy the photo everyone.

2010-10-06T08:54:00.001+08:00

Lego Land

2010-10-06T08:34:00.002+08:00

For his birthday and present for fasting 30 days.zaki wanted Lego toys.He nag and nag me and his dad until we all so pening.To make it more meaningful for him I told him to use RM50 of his duit raya and imagine this...he on the floor main golek golek with the quilt...and crying out loud...tak nak guna duit raya zaki...duit tu nak simpan unuk kahwin!!I can't stop laughing and everyone was geli hati ter amat....how did he get such idea...ni mesti dia dengar me telling Akmal and Aqil to save money...nanti senang habis belajar terus kahwin duit dah ada.....heheheh

Anyway..I bought one for him....but not the one that he wanted.He wanted a 3 d lego than buit house..that cost RM260....On Sunday we had small birthday party for him and zikry and annouced to the aunties that Zaki wanted Lego toys so he got another 2 set of Lego toys.And above is his lego land and he took the picture himself.

Testing II

2010-10-05T19:05:00.000+08:00

Sending photo using my blackberry....alamak where is the post photo icon?

testing

2010-10-05T09:06:00.000+08:00

Sending from by blackberry.....

More birds

2010-09-22T12:54:00.002+08:00

I was opening the curtain at the tv area in the first floor and I looked out for any interesting birds.There I saw the birds on the fence at the end of the TNB house.It's the sunbirds.Picture as above.I was lucky..one of the bird fly to my pond and take a sip at my flower by the pond.I was delighted...

Then the little heron was seen on top of the TNB building.I quickly grab my camera and took picture of it .It was too small but I will try to edit it soon.Anyway only knew the name of the bird today by looking it up in the internet today.Seen the bird around quite a few time quite impressive when it fly around with it's big wings.

All the above happened in less than 5 minutes.

Missing Him

2010-09-21T11:19:00.002+08:00

Akmal left for school 4 days ago and I am still missing him.He left KL by plane at LCCT and I am worried about him travelling alone to school...but later that day he called and I heard him laughing and talking to his friends and I am so relief that he arrived safely. I can see other students wearing their uniform at the airport...but not my son...black shoes given to him by his dad...they now can share shoes since both wearing size 10...slack and T shirt for him...the batik uniform will only be on before entering the school gate he said.

Packing was another ho ha for him and me....I did not wannt him to bring back my big bag..but the small bag can't fit in his things....upon checking...he brought a long a lots of books including dictionary ...he only used half of them!!

Now the house dah senyap without him at home......Will I be missing all my children when they are out of the house???I am sure will....My heart will be longing for all my 5 children wherever they are.

Common King fisher

2010-09-21T11:12:00.000+08:00

The bird above was spotted on the electricity pole in front of my house.It was making trill ,shrill and high pitched sound that made me peep outside my bedroom room.There on the pole the bird was singing.Trying to take the photo using my hp was fruitless....then remember Akmal's request for DLSR camera...made me thinking.hehehe

Anyway reading from the fact sheet the bird is usually found near water and since my house is near the pond...so it's not suprising that the bird visited my house.

I spotted quite a lot of birds around the house and very very interested to take picture of them.Living near the forest reserve help a lot too.

Selamat Hari Raya

2010-09-09T11:50:00.003+08:00

Believe it or not I am still giving lecture and tutorial today.Ni semua gara gara salah planning.Bila tak replace class awal awal....kalau cuti banyak banyak pening nak replace.

So I thought hubby pun sure nak tunggu sampai semua van dia keluar baru nak balik Muar so baik i just buat this 2 hours class then we go back daripada me restless kat rumah tunggu dia.

Latest news....the last van should be out by 8.00am but I CANT BELIEVE IT...THEY ONLY GOING TO PICK UP AT 2.30pm...baik betul!!!See baik juga cont aje kelas today...

But yesterday I took half day....kemas kemas rumah...kerah budak budak tu..keluarkan baju raya..samping songkok and butang baju....tak naklah ada kes tak bawak baju melayu sesapa...macam kes beberapa tahun dulu....zikry walaupun dah pandai jalan tak di beli baju melayu....rasa galat juga sebab sure cute dia pakai baju melayu...tapi hubby yang frugal kata ...alah dia pakai seminit aje...tak berbaloi beli....belek belek almari jumpa baju seluar jubah budak yang nak beri kat anak sapa tapi tak beri yang hubby beli kat mekah...so tu lah baju 1 hari Zikry....bapak nya kalau boleh...yang lain pun nak disuruh berbaju jubah mekah aje pada 1st raya...yang baru di beli masa last trip ke mekah....budak budak jerit mak budak pun jerit.....

Mak budak and anak perempuannya ada sepasang baju cotton ibu dan anak....yelah sementara nabila nak pakai baju sedondon dengan mak nya buatlah juga...then ada baju kain silk dr shanghai....baju kurung manik manik beli masa kat Vietnam and satu kain dr Msia...heheheNabila...ada 2 gaun..pink and green yang sudah dipakainya masa reading class....ada ke?

Lepas sahur tadi dah masak ayam masak kicap santan dengan sambal jawanya.....so berbuka mlm ni ketupat dengan menu jawa...since kahwin dengan orang jawakan....menu orang bugis muar pagi raya pulak....so budak budak BK dah menunggu juga ayam masak kicap saya...yelah lain dr lain...ingat raya ni nak buat serunding kelapa.....entahlah lupa pulak.....

So raya...biasalah...muar..then BP...then rengit....sis 3 organise open house kat muar hari ke 3 untuk member member sekolah kat Muar dulu.I was given pemisssion to invite 3 orang aje....anyway...memang 3 orang aje kawan baik masa sekolah dulu....tapi tunggu dulu tak invite sebab tak sure hari ke 3 tu ada kat Muar tak...sebab berbisik bisik dengan hubby planning nak gi melawat Datul Lee...then gi Universal Studio dia...hahaha...bisik bisik..sebab nanti bebudak tu excited walhal tak sure lagi..yelah raya raya ni susah nak plan sikit...tgk keadaan lah ...kalau dah tak ada mana nak gi kita ke US lah...Akmal dah hint hint banyak kali last few days ni...mommy daddy buat tak dengar aje.....

Okay lecture nak start dah..

Selamat HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN to all my blog readers.

Satu Hari di bulan Ramadan

2010-08-25T16:10:00.002+08:00

Tiba tiba aje ...hubby kata lets buat bbq.Wei I don't like bbq...I like chicken bbq but I hate dealing with the arang....but never mind hubby is an expert...me.. just call bibik then tell her to marinate the chicken with bbq sauce and black pepper.Hubby just called Aqil and instruct him to start the fire.When we reach home fire already started and the bbq begins with Nabila taking care of the chicken.

Zikry

2010-08-19T16:14:00.002+08:00

Zikry dah pandai jalan.End of August he will be 1 year old.Ni tomel tomel mommy.Miss him all the time.Baju raya zikry dah siap semua...

Doa

2010-08-19T12:06:00.003+08:00

I nag..I praise...I guide...I scold...I threaten...I motivate.....but now I just doa...doa .....doa..semoga dia di beri petunjuk dan hidayah....untuk belajar bersungguh sungguh.

AFTER 1 YEAR

2010-08-18T11:55:00.002+08:00

Sedar sedar dah setahun dok rumah baru ni.Lepas setahun hubby dapat kolam ikan dia and I got my lantai kayu our first floor.

I just love our garden...make a lot of different tak ada orang kat sebelah.Our favourite time will be dok kat buaian malam malam and look at the stars and the moon.There this one time the moon was so nice...I bawak pillow kat luar baring atas kerusi and enjoyed the moon.We... meaning me...then the children...then hubby....it was just awesome looking at the moon.You should try too.

What I really want to add to my garden will be rumah pondok kayu for the children....one day...

Smack his head!!

2010-08-17T15:19:00.002+08:00

Akmal was at home from 4th to 14th of August.He fly firefly.Wanted to experience flying so we bought firefly ticket for him.Told him to travel light since he had to take bus to Butterworth...then ferry then Rapid to Bayan Lepas.He came back with Billabong slingbag and backpack..its heavy as stone.Upon checking it was full of clothes,books and 2 water bottle.Oh yes a neatly tied up box full of shoes...school shoes...sport shoes....sandal...had to bring them all back since it is dangerous to leave at the hostel.After 2 days I found out that he actually had it pack in a box at the airport.Yeah it too good for him to do all the packing himself.The shoes was actually in a plastic bag! He came home with news that for the second time he lost his handphone and this time his MP3 too.Somebody broke into his cupboard .

I will NOT entertained him with buying new handphone or MP3 .Told him 16 years can work.So if you wanted to buy all the stuff come Dec go and work.It can be at petronas,giant...or a newly open Mydin right infront of our house. Gosh..now I am worried about my tennis racket that he borrowed.He brought along tennis racket,badminton racket and 2 hockey stick to his boarding school.

He spent his days sleeping....talking about his school activities....towards the end finished up with biology assignment.

On the day of his departure....he changed the sling bag to a trolley bag....so now one bag pack and one trolley bag.He still at the computer just minutes before entering the car.At the door......Alaaa...bibik tak pack kasut Akmal.....felt like smacking him on the head...how can he left the packing to bibik!!!! Now no place to put all the shoes....daddy got brialliant idea....let use the bigger bag...MY NEW TRAVELLING BAG!!......ok transfer everything to the big bag....and I started to nag...why the hell did he had to bring back soooo many clothes and soooo many books.blah blah blah....then I surrender...penah wei...layan remaja ni....

Wave him good bye at Subang....then I felt worried....How is he going to take bus then ferry then bus again to sungai petani then cab to his school...is it safe?....hubby said not too worry lots of boarding school students at the bus station...that calmed me down.

He sms at night...now he has sim card but no phone...he borrowed friends phone...must be....how to open the bag...what is the password.....hahahhah...where is my folio....his biology assignment...finished the day before flying...in the morning...daddy went to the shop help him bind it...now he can't find it....can I smack his head again?

My Akmal can be matured one minute and can be so childish and clumsy another minutes...I felt like crying and laughing at the same time.....I have aqil,zaki ,nabila and zikry coming up.Lets enjoy their antics.

Ramadan is here

2010-08-11T12:11:00.003+08:00

Ini check list for Ramadhan this year.

The ibadat part not preparing for raya part.

If raya part I can be displined enough to spent time and money to make sure everyone ada baju baru....biskut raya dah order...I think part ibadat pun boleh juga.

Last puasa tak dapat gi terawih sebab dalam pantang.So this year nak lah pergi but ada 2 concern.

1.Kesian kat Zikry...dahlah tinggalkan dia sehari suntuk...malam pun tak ada kat rumah.

2.Kalau gi masjid..nabila nak ikut and with her I have to sembahyang kat belakang.

For no 1 ...I will gi masjid days yang balik awal dari office...so petang main dengan zikry...malam gi terawih.If tak gi masjid...usually we will sembahyang jemaah aje kat rumah.

For no 2...this one I have no choicelah.Cannot and will not leave her alone at the back.The other boys also dah di beri penerangan yang tegas yakni tak di benarkan membuat bising atau berlari lari di masjid.Semua mesti sembahyang sebelah daddy.

For buka puasa....as usual berbuka puasa I will cook...usually buka puasa makan lain dr nasi sahur aje makan nasi and we will beli kueh kueh sikit.Kalau aqil suka kueh hijau...so we buy maybe 1 piece of kueh hijau...so no bazir bazir....I was brought up dengan berbuka tanpa kueh.My mom said air dah manis...hehehe...so tak geti sangat nak buka dengan banyak banyak kueh and I believe budak budak pun boleh dididik dari kecil.Hubby pun tak suka beli banyak banyak makanan.Kalau banyak left over dalam fridge nanti dia bising.Things get worst because I dont eat left over food.So masak kena ngam ngam...sahur masak lauk lain.

What I like to start this ramadhan will be bertadarus kat rumah.Now the boys semua dah pandai baca quran it will be nice if we can all sit around and ngaji quran.The thing is..WHEN...have to find time yang tak stressfull.Can it be after semb magrib...sementara tunggu gi terawih...or balik terawih....or lepas sahur ..sebelum subuh....?I will observe the routine tonite and see which time is the best.

Semoga Allah SWt memberi petunjuk dan hidayah.

A reader

2010-08-10T14:54:00.004+08:00

I was very happy /terharu when Akmal told me he finished his story book.A 600 pages English novel.

I am happy because I succeeded in making him a reader.From baby I read to him...buy lots and lots of books....and he be able to sit and read...jadi sejuk hati ni.....

Aqil on the other hand has problem finishing up a book but I am not giving up on him....he 's not the same as Akmal...so the book that he likes is also different...at the moment he's reading The Wimpy kids....I will keep on introducing books to ...I will not give up on him.

What with the astro,ps 2 , internet...to instill love for books in the youngsters is so damm difficult.

One Saturday...

2010-08-02T09:55:00.003+08:00

The pictures was taken 2 weeks ago by bro inlaw.It was a Saturday with sending zaki for tuition...wedding in Pandan Indah and meeting hubby's bro in bangi and ending at cyberjaya park to join sis 3 and mak with family...the boys trying out their new skateboard.

Nabila and Sofina.I was baby sitting sis 4 children while she is in Singapore.Nabila favourite dress at the moment.It was firzana party dress...she even wore it to her reading class.

The boys and girl with their skate board.
Zikry termenung jauh.

Happy thoughts

2010-07-28T09:21:00.003+08:00

Writing about children always make me happy......

Akmal..called me 2 days ago...he was fasting...they sort of encourage /force to fast on monday...and he said...akmal rasa nak pengsan...this is the kind of call yang mana he did not want to put the phone down.He lazily talked about his kem kepimpinan..how they experience flying fox and played paint ball...excited betul part paint ball tu...siap cerita detail how he kena shot etc etc...ada juga kisah dia kena tinggal dalam hutan...with all the noice that he heard around him...he dare not put his face up he said...and also other activities whereby he had to do presentation.He also meet the son of his daddy' s friend at the kem...we went to their house in penang before sending him to merbok..the friends son is in lenggong's hostel.I always miss Akmal so the call was

very nice indeed.Hopefully he will still call me this way even when he is working and all grown up.

Aqil...been trying to help him with his studies.I started with sejarah.Take one topic and sit with him.Showed him how to do mind mapping...cerita kan sejarah...tu...then he said can mommy continue ceritakan..then I can remember better...hahahah....how lah like that.

Then we did mind mapping for science...teached him how to do the questions...and how mind mapping will help him remember.

All those time teaching Aqil I realised that there's a LOT the students have to remember...so if you are like Akmal and has to problem memorising then surely you can get A....Akmal never study hard...never saw him sitting at the table more than 30 minutes.But Aqil is speacial...he will only remember if the stuff is interesting...and most of the stuff is damm boring...how do you make it interesting...it is not easy to make a boy sit long hours at the table mugging.

Zaki...pagi sekolah kebangsaan...ptg sek ugama....mln ngaji...sampai rumah terus tido....when to do revision....??

Nabila....my 3 sons bila we took off the two small wheels on their bicycle....automatically they can ride on two wheels....but not my daughter...she so scared to let go....yesterday I saw he happily membonceng the neighbour's bicycle...

Zikry....he took his first 2 steps...and that was a week ago....he is so comfortable crawling....love him ....so into his puting and sleep through the night....

Bersangka baik

2010-07-27T14:37:00.002+08:00

I want to pratice bersangka baik pada allah swt.Whatever plan for me its the best thing for me.Accept it with redha.....

I am trying hard...

Siemens Run 3 .5 km 19th July 2010

2010-07-22T13:39:00.005+08:00

Yeah !!!...so we ran 3.5 km.....completed it and got our cert...hihi...its actually more of brisk walkinglah....the boys ..Aqil and the gang...they ran.

It was fun...even on Sunday morning....3.5km its nothing actually...me jalan maam biasa aje...but it was fun.Next eun will be on 5th August.5 km

The children...zaki tak ikut...sebab he hurt his jari kaki..while playing skate board.

At the end of the run.

sis 1,3,2 and 4....siapa yang kurus sekali????

Where 's the daddies....can't answer for the others but mine...lutut dah ngilu...for this kind of run.

Mammogram

2010-07-22T12:00:00.003+08:00

It was a scary experience yesterday....not the mammogram procedure but the result.I went for my executive health screen...and since dah 40 already baiklah buat mammogram walaupun bukan dalam package tu.The health check buat on the 13th July tapi mammogram ni pospone dulu sebab masa tu belum period so it's not comfortable to buat.

So yesterday gilah buat sama dengan x ray and appointment dengan doctor should be on 27th july.

Everything was over in half and hour and hubby sent me back to office...then the hospital called kata ada tissue yang tak jelas so nak kena buat lagi sekali...called hubby balik..and did the second mammogram...hati dah berdebar debar ni....what do you expect..I lost my grandmother ,2 aunties and a cousin thru breast cancer....so takut lah amat sangat.

I insisted on seing the dr on the same day juga...don't think I can function without knowing the result.....so I waited about 2 hours....and alhamdullilah every thing was normal...phewwww...lega rasa....felt like crying my heart out ...sooo relief.....while waiting...my mind wonders..what if...what if....the children so small...Zikry..nabila...zaki...aqil and akmal........

Now don't feel like eating anything...wanting to exercise all the time....I think its time for me to jaga my health..watch what I eat and exercise ...exercise ...and exercise....bukit gasing anyone this weekend??

Football by the beach

2010-07-16T12:30:00.000+08:00

From our recent trip to Penang....

Aqil 14th Birthday Party

2010-07-16T12:19:00.001+08:00

Read about it here

Zaki 10 years old

2010-07-16T12:12:00.002+08:00

Zaki taking picture in our own town house in Pandan Indah that we wanted to sell off.

Zaki ...zaki....zaki......I am thinking how to help him with his study.Recent mid semester result was not encouraging at all.Dia suka berkhayal...and blur blurr....

Yesterday I started a new project with him.Science project.We are learning about measurement..length...So I created mind mapping for him...he was so eager for me to draw for him..and he coloured it.We measured things in the house using measuring tape etc etc...we had lots of fun and Nabila joined in too.I think he is better home school aje lah...hehehe

My Zikry 11 months

2010-07-16T11:57:00.002+08:00

My Zikry is now eleven months old and he is such a darling.Still crawling and so active.He is so semangat I cannot carry him more than 5 minutes.

Kedah trip

2010-07-13T11:43:00.005+08:00

Last day before beginning of the second semester.

So apa cerita....lets see trip to kedah to visit Akmal was very enjoyable.

Thursday 8 July

Aqil,Zaki ,Nabila and hubby di cutikan.I memang lama dah minta cuti.Anyway it's semester break for me.So we had to leave house by 9 am sebab nak bawak Akmal gi specialist hospital kat Sg petani before 4pm.Badan dia gatal gatal dah nak 2 bln and dah jadi luka luka sebab dia garu....so must gi speacialist.Semua mami dah arrange.

It was always a chaos before bertolak.Mana nak stop Nabila from bawak teddy bear dia yang terbesar....mana nak cakap dgn Aqil and Zaki that tak muat nak bawak bantal.Mana nak suruh semua orang stop watching TV and start carrying the bags to the car.Wei penat betul....

Okay at last at 9.30 am we moved on ...me and hubby with all 5 kids (was thinking to tinggalkan Zikry at sis's place...not because he is still small but mami too tired to layan him..heheheh) and my mom also followed us.

We arrived at Akmal's school at 2 pm.He actually packed his things in 2 bags..one in big bag and one small carrying bag.I don't know why he nedd to pack so many clothes for only 2 nights outing....

We went to the hospital pakar...get the medications and lunch and drive up to Changlun.

Oh in the car...from Kl to Sg petani...Aqil sat in front...me mom and baby sat second row and zaki and Nabila the last row.The two small one played then fight then played then cried...aduh penatnya.....

Okay in Changlun we went the hubby nephew's new house.Beautiful and nice decorated house.They have 3 children and their children called us Tok dad and Tok mami....OMG I am already an atok!!!

Spent the night there...

Asked Akmal did you sleep late playing the game then Aqil said..no mami Akmal sleep late reading books he found in the bed room kisah nabi nabi....akmal is such a nerd Aqil said...Akmal love reading ...Aqil just can't seemed to finished any books.

Day 2

Our plan waas to visit penang Island.Check in hotel and they started jumping up and down wanting to go to the pool.Ok I took care of Nabila and Zaki while hubby jaga Zikry...then Akmal and zaki started nagging to try the jet ski.Me kecut perut if the boys nak try go cart ke..rock climbing ke....but they are all into all the extreme sports and they tried it all....so at the end the daddy gave green light and they pun jump on the jet ski....punyalah laju bawak ...I dare not see....

Lots of tourist from the middle east and how I admired the ladies..taat dengan jubah and face all covered by the beach and still tried the jet ski and paragliding with the hubby and jubah and purdah all.

Dinner I ate too much and was so sleepy after that I can't walked properly....Zikry was a darling but from time to time my mom had to remind me his milk and food...bukan apa...day in and day out it's bibik yang jaga zikry....bibik mandikan dia...bersihkan dia...beri susu and makan...me..main main aje dengan dia...bad motherkan...hehehehe

Akmal on the other hand will tell us his boarding life...esp kat mami dia yang tak pernah masuk sekolah asrama ni...to me asrama ni...dok study aje....but he told me stories like...

...tiap tiap minggu akmal keluar gi tesco sebab akmal beli barang untuk persatuan usahawan muda...seminggu sekali they all buat jual jual..burger,kueh teaw,nasi lemak etc etc.

...He watched movie kat sekolah...they organise the show and collect money.It seemed that they can organize anything they wanted as long as school approve it.

....He is into Tae kwan Do ...one last exam to get his black belt.Ia m so happyyyyy.

....he is also into photography club.First assignment during the explorace and asking me to buy him the DSLR camera...something like that lah..me buat do nooo aje.

...they call him Englishman sebab dia selalu speaking...what a pity in Kl he speaks english in school all the time but in Kedah...others are not really into speaking in English.

...he is also in kadet polis...Lembaga displin pelajar..persatuan usahawan muda and swimming...all 5 when other will be doing 3 ko ko only.

...He is also going to kem kepimpinan soon..

So my questions are...bila u study...he said study juga but I only tell you things that I enjoyed very much which are all the activities.

So just play hard and study hard too Akmal.

Day 3

As promised a trip to Tesco to buy his food stuff...Aqil got green light from atok to get whatever he wanted also..atok belanja.

I spend close to Rm 300 for his food stuff including a plastic containers to put the food in.It never cross my mind that boarding school students need so much money for their food.Every 2 weeks for outing he spent more than RM 5o for food in the supermarket.

He bought...boxes of tissues,wipes,liquid detergent..dobi punya tak ada bau...cereal...6 small boxes of milk.A carton of mineral water,a pack of 6 of small soda,It did not help that it was a tesco extra...so big bag of crisps...tin of biscuits,few more biscuits and crips...cereal bar..chocolates...big bottle of sweets..or is it chewing gum?To hilangkan ngantuk dia cakap....it's like shoping for a family of 4.Maggi mee...he did not like maggie but purchase it to sell to other students...his cousin is doing it in his school and his wanted to try.He already started selling his milo pack to students.

Is this normal for a boarding school...somebody help me here...

Maybe it's our fault too...at home...we are quite generous with food for the children...at home we always have all the stuff like biscuits,crisps,cereal etc etc...so kat asrama pun dia buat sama jugalah.

Then we sent him back to his school...me so sedih..he said he did not feel very well and wanted to skip school on Sunday and cont the holiday.We said no...school you must go.

I was sad to leave him but happy that he is enjoying himself at the school.

Reached KL past midnight....so tired.

On sunday Akmal sms saying he had high fever..I was very worried..called the pengetua to check on him since can't get his homerrom teacher....anyway he was ok on tuesday.....

Oh He told me when was in Balik Pulau for the drama competition...he was the DJ....he spotted lots of colourful bird around.....yeay...I managed to make my son a bird lover like me....so I am now searching for a bird watching holiday during his school break.

Pandan Indah town house

2010-07-05T12:25:00.002+08:00

We are in the middle of selling our town house in Pandan Indah.Why??I for one did not felt happy looking for tenants.....I tell you the moment we advertise for rent...My phone did not stop ringing...I actually ran from my phone.Then I made appointments for the potential tenant...This is I choose you ..not you choose me.

I have to be good at choosing the right tenant.Must be family....secured jobs...so I turned down...kerja sendiri people....look like female but voice like male....two ladies that look like guys...Too many in one family.....these poeple wanted to rent my place...they beg me....but I have to be choosy so that no headache later on.

The house need to be repaired in the future...even tho at the moment non of the potential tenant request us to repair the house but in the futere we have too....but hubby is reluctant to spent money on the house repairs...so how...

Then we decided to sell it....we put really high price...we have lots of chinese wanting to purchase it but its bumi lot...so we are looking at bumi.....not we this time...but the estate agents helping us to sell it.

To cut story short..I am tired....tired of hubby for not being able to make his mind up....tired of the estate agent.....tired of the whole things....I don't hav the kesabaran to deal with people...so for now...I don't want to think about it.

Aqil BBQ birthday party

2010-07-05T12:19:00.002+08:00

Last night was Aqil bbq birthday party.A small one...just my sisters...no present is required..just give cash...I want to open saving account for him.Sis 4 gave insurance policy..she paid the innial payment.

It was so difficult for me to think of menu...so after much discussion...first with sis 4 then with mak...even called MY...then with hubby...I end up with nasi ayam..sup kambing...salad...and hubby will prepare bbq chicken and ikan pari bakar....

All when okay...the chicken was deliciouis...the rice was cukup cukup...should had cook more...maybe 12 cups...

Akmal updates

2010-07-05T12:13:00.002+08:00

Going to visit Akmal this thursday since during the school holiday his father was not around and I promised I go to kedah with his dad to bring his food supplies.

He called late last night...he wanted to drop Prinsip Account.......nak drop ...nak drop....he said...Akmal tak faham....susah....try telling that to parent who is an accountant....hahaha...we just cannot understand what so difficult about doing accounts.

But this morning in my car with Linda...I just realised that to some people...they just can't figure out what accounting is all about...yes I have students like that....and Linda said.....you are sitting next to one....I just can't do account.

Ok next time I talk to Akmal....I will let him decide on his own.

Bali Spa

2010-07-05T12:10:00.003+08:00

Came back from bali last Wed.Picture later since both handphone and camera is not with me at the moment.Went on Sun and came back on Wed with samantha,christine and Linda.It was hilarious.....yes what do you expect when 4 girls went to bali.Really I had loads of fun.

Broga Hill

2010-06-14T13:59:00.002+08:00

Second activity for the holiday.Panjat Broga Hill with Akmal,Aqil,Zaki Sis 1 and Zana.I just love it so much.Must go again.

Jungle walk in Bukit Gasing

2010-06-10T14:56:00.002+08:00

Our first activity for the school holiday....

Next will be Bukit Broga Semenyih.

Counting my blessing...

2010-06-01T11:30:00.002+08:00

They said you must count your blessings....so one day..when I was feeling ugly....I said to myself I must count my blessings....so I go around and in my head...I was thinking..look my hip is smaller than her...I am much fairer than her....I got double eye lid..she got single eyelid....She got white hair and I had non....hehehe....I felt much better after that.

My local koi

2010-06-01T11:24:00.002+08:00

Enjoying my local carps....they look healthy and everyone is happy to feed them.The pond also did not turn green after 3 days...meaning the filter ..eventho simple is working....

I used the water from the pond to water my plants....great way to baja my pokok.Picture is only illustrations...since Akmal took my photo..I have difficulty downloading the photo from the other camera...sebab asyik lupa bawak camera to office.

Murai kampung

2010-06-01T11:01:00.002+08:00

Pagi pagi I can see this two birds flying here and there around my house.Making nice music also early in the morning.I called it Robin...hubby called it burung murai...it's actually burung murai kampung or magpie robin.

I kind of love bird watching ...so this two birds hopping aroung the house gives me such pleasure.

Bunga Frangipani

2010-05-31T09:14:00.003+08:00

I wanted a pink Frangipani.They gave me a nice healthy 5 feet tree but without the flower but a promise that it will be pink.

After few months the flowers started to bloom.It was red!!!

Should I called the landscaper and demand that she gave me a pink one.I know she will come and pull out the red Frangipani and replace it with the pink...but but I kind of love the red too...can they just give me another tree for free?

2010-05-19T13:01:00.002+08:00

Before I did anything I researched it well ...followed the rules and regulations...make sure I got everything ready and right.Then I act on it.

But

He just act on it....research later...rules and regulations later......everything last minutes.

I felt like crying and screaming!!

Am I fat?

2010-05-19T12:49:00.002+08:00

A friend whisper to my ear today..You must teach me how to lose weight....

Why is she asking me?All my life I always felt that I am fat.

Am I not fat?

Lets asked Samantha....am I fat.?.

Samantha:...you are normal

Me:Normal means....

Samantha:...aiya what do you expect after 5 kids....if you are like ya yea and have 5 kids then it wont be fair for me!!

Okay I accidentally provoke sam again....hehehe

Lets asked Christine...okay she is not in her room.

Lets call sis 4....she used to tease me about me being fat when we were small....like you tease me that I am dark...sis 4 would reply.

Okay..

Me:Am I fat?

Sis 4: No lah....

So 3 people said that I am not fat...

Come to think about it....I think I am not fat....not thin...but also not fat.....

Back to the friend that whisper to me....I told her..stop eating at 7pm....then she said at 10pm I be hungry....yes at the beginning but if you let it be...you get used to it....then my hubby wanted to go and eat at mamak for super......she said...sorry we don't eat super....maybe once in the blue moon...I said.I think she hates me now.

Burger King

2010-05-18T11:17:00.004+08:00

At 12.30am I received sms from my 16 years old son who is first time in boarding school all the way in Kedah.

Ello,Masa cuti sekolah nanti akmal nak makan Burger King boleh?

Alahai sedih pulak mommy ni rasa....huhuhu

Happy 5th Birthday Nabila

2010-05-12T09:19:00.002+08:00

Nabila was 5 years old on 9th of April and I owe her a birthday party.Unlike Akmal and Aqil's time ..I was so excited to organized birthday party....but now I am sooooo the lazy tu buat birthday party.Tapi kesian pulak kat dia...so buat jugalah.

She wanted kek tingkat tingkat macam masa mummy kahwin...no lah nabila...mummy buatkan kek tingkat bila bea nak kahwin nanti....and she wanted to jemput ramai orang...no..lah I just wanted to cook for around 30 people...being sedara...kawan and jiran saja.

So I bought the dress...ordered the kek...bought stuff for party pack...asked sis 1 to cook the rice...mom to buat the jelly and bibik to prepare everything and I cook the lauk and the popia....

and we had a lovely birthday party......

August Zikry will be 1 ....another birthday party coming up folks in August!!!

Our garden....

2010-05-12T08:31:00.002+08:00

After so many discussions and arguments...starting from where to position the pond ...to the size of the pond...to the type of the pond....till the end... to the type of the plant surrounding the pond we at last manage to own a koi pond.Much to the delight of hubby and the rest of the family members. After the completion of the pond I now know my hubby's a bit more...hahahha but it a project that is very refreshing...visiting the landscape ...talking to contractors....talking to neighbours with pond....and also discussions after discussions with hubby on how we wanted the pond to be.Me being typical lecturer wanting people to follow what I said...and hubby being hubby the hard headed.....Different upbringing with different background make us two very different person.......we learn to give and take...on what he and I wanted......

so now after dinner we sit on our swing near the pond to enjoy the stars and night breeze while the fish swim and the water flow.

May the pond brings lots of happiness to our family.

Art work

2010-05-11T10:25:00.001+08:00

Zaki's Mother's day card for me.Done in his art class that I sent him every Sunday morning.He is more art incline that the rest of my children.The art above was guided by the teacher.

The above was done by Nabila.I just love the colour and the simplicity of the picture.

Broken into

2010-05-06T16:32:00.003+08:00

Hubby's office was broken into yesterday.He lost 2 lap tops,1 month old desk top,2 printer 1 printer and a fax machine ,projector,modem and router.It was so sad.

He did not insured the office so we just lost everything.

The office was ramsacked...drawers were peeled opened...and everything was all over the place.

I took El and accompany him to the police station.

I did not want to think about what we lost but to move forward so that things can be back as normal.

We went home..pick up the desk top,printer and my lap top.

When back to the office...I did not wait for the investigating officer to come but proceed cleaning the office.First..hubby's room with all the papers on the floor.I wanted the room to look as normal.While hubby try to carry on biz I usual...with my lap top and home maxis broadband..I proceed with cleaning up the store.Two other staff were also cleaning up their rooms.The thiefs ramsacked the store.They got the projector which was in the store.I been always wanted to convert the store into praying room and this is my chance.I throw away lots boxes and clean up the store and convert it into the praying room.

While hubby busy at the office I went to buy fax machine and printer for the office. The least I can do as other days I will be busy.I know hubby is sad and down but I told him just look forward.

As of today...he bought new desktop...repair the door...call the alarm people.He wanted to move but not in few months time.We are aiming for office infront of our house.....

I believe that...segala yang berlaku ada kebaikan nya.Mungkin tak nampak sekarang tapi kemudian hari.Sentiasa bersangka baik pada allah swt.

I choose

2010-04-30T09:03:00.001+08:00

I choose not to ask.....and when I did not ask....I did not know....am I more happier that way?

Exhilarating

2010-04-30T09:00:00.001+08:00

I acted on it and it was double exhilarating!!!!

Piss off entry

2010-04-29T08:50:00.002+08:00

I have been writing two piss off entries and I am feeling GOOD!!!

Readlah

2010-04-29T08:44:00.006+08:00

Akmal told me he choose New Zealand or Australia to futher his study.Ok..fine.Then he sms asking me to fill up the form(download in the internet) and sent it before 30th April.Fine.

What Not so fine is that:

1.Its actually an exchange programme.

2.You have to pay like Rm10 000.

3.They prefer meat eater and the meat is non halal.

4.Do expect the foster parent to have dogs in the house.

5.The corporate body that provide scholarship only provide it for the employess 's children.

Whatlah..this boy never read!!....If I scold my students for not reading the assignment questions properly ...it looks like my son is no different from my students.Felt like sepaking him.

Fasting

2010-04-29T08:35:00.002+08:00

When there are people in the house fasting...I make sure...the drinks are ready (asked what drinks they want)...the food are all ready (asked before what they like to eat)...and when it's time to break fast...called them and eat with them.

When I am fasting....bibik prepared the food and drinks as I requested....but then I dozed off and they only remember to wake me up 10 mins after breaking time.

Yesterday I was emotional....

UP

2010-03-07T10:17:00.003+08:00

Not down anymore.Yesterday ended very well actually.The Australian lecturer was nice.She's very interested in me so we had good coversation during lunch our.In the afternoon at home since it's hot and next week is a exam week I put eyeryone in the study room ,switch on the aircon and we did some work.Aqil studying his science ,nabila doing her homework and zaki his science too.

Me on the other hand tidy up the study room and waloooo I found my gold pandent given to me by my employer for my 10 years service.I thought I lost it already.Then I proceeded in doing my painting...hahaha I am painting a wooden frame.I wanted it to be of darker colour but at the end it turned out to become dirty look.hahaha I wanted to frame zaki's art class painting since they are so beautiful.

At nite we had dinner with sis 1 and mak.It was just fabulous.I think reason the surah yassin really blow away my feeling of down.

Chu Chi Tunnel

2010-03-06T11:21:00.003+08:00

Gambar ini guide we all tunjukkan macamana komunis dulu larikan diri dalam hutan yang penuh dengan terowong yang they all bina.Tu lubang yang they all masuk.Bawah ada tiga level tunnel.So kalau badan besar memang tak ada canlah nak masuk.

Ada satu tunnel memang untuk visitors.We all semua masuk.MY mula mula tak nak tapi saya suruh juga masuk...yelah kat malaysia mana ada.Lubang tu kecil aje...kena tunduk masuk...ada lah 5 minit we merangkak nak sampai ke atas balik.Ada tempat tempat yang gelap juga...menjerit jerit MY panggil saya.Saya pun suspen juga sebab tak tau penhujungnya.Bila nampak cahaya ..lega rasanya...makna dah nak dekat sampai atas balik.Sis 3 sibuk ambik gambar bila keluar terowong...orang belakang dah sound...Hoi tak yah lah ambik gambar dulu...we all ni dah penat membongkok...yelah yang depan sibuk ambik gambar keluar terowong yang belakang dah jam pulak jadinya.

Keluar dari terowong kita di samu ubi rebus dan air teh.Sis 1 kata dia sedih masa dalam terowong mengingatkan kominis tu dok sampai 20 tahun kat sini.I pun rasa sedih juga.Yelah macam tikus dok dalam terowong.Sis 3 pun mengeletar tangan...ingatkan sebab takut tunnel gelap tapi sebab masa dalam tunnel sun glasses dia jatuh so dia suspen takut tak jumpa sunglasses dia....nasib baik akhirnya jumpa.

2010-03-06T11:15:00.002+08:00

Ni pun kat mekong river.Aqil dan Akmal walaupun mula mula macam boring aje nak pergi vietnam tapi bila dah sampai sana seronok juga they all.Aqil beli key chain and cermin untuk gang bus sekolah dia.Untung budak budak sekarang kecil kecil dah gi luar negara.Semoga pengalaman ini meluaskan pandangan mereka.

2010-03-06T11:01:00.002+08:00

Bila tengok gambar ni mesti aku tersenyum.Ni gambar masa kat Mekong River vietnam.Sebelum naik kereta kuda ni...we all naik bot gi ke pulau kat seberang mekong river.Melawat kebun buah buahan ...tengok gula gula dari santan lepas naik kereta kuda ni pulak.Dalam gambar ni semua yang pergi dalam keluarga aku ada.Kat depan Akmal dan aqil.Baris kedua me and sis3 then sis 1 ,mak then my fren mak yang.Masa ni seronok aje...asyik ketawa aje.Aku pun baru beli bag dari kulit ular.Gelak gelak naik kuda ni.Bila kuda ni gerak lagi lah we all gelak...gelak sebab kelakar dan takut juga.Cerita lepas tu yang pergi aje yang tau...hahah sepanjang trip tu semua terkenang kan peristiwa tu.

Down

2010-03-06T10:22:00.003+08:00

I am feeling down these few days....no apparent reason that I can think of.So trying to lift myself up....I walked....that it...I did not do anything else...I feel good at mopping around....muncung aje.....but mopping around is not goodkan.

Today I am taking care of the australian lecturer.I am usually interested in people....like to chat chat chat...but today I decided that I did not want to be interested in her.

What is it that I want to do.....

Am I angry at anyone....

Am I not satisfied with anything?

What is it?

Can I get rid of this blues....

What the hell wrong with me?

SHake it of!!!!

I know lets go to the surau and baca surah yassin....that will give me peace.

My pokok

2010-03-02T12:10:00.005+08:00

Love this pokok but worried when one of the daun turn yellow and fell off.Hiduplah pokok comel ku sayang.

My Nabila

2010-03-02T08:54:00.002+08:00

Yeah!! pecah rekod today Nabila sampai ke Tadika sebelum pukul 8 pagi.Yelah sepanjang dua bulan Nabila datang lambat setiap hari dan lambat sampai satu jam.Nabila kata teacher kata"never mind'!!..Maybe never mind for her but for mommy and daddy... we really mind.Apa yang meyebabkan dia bangun awal..Mommy kata kalau lambat lagi mami suruh auntie ambil and auntie kalau tahu Nabila tidur lagi...auntie masuk bilik mandikan Nabila...hehehe takut dia.Dah 2 bulan sekolah.Sepatah mandarin words pun tak dengar.List of friends dia semua malay...hai macamana nak pick up mandarin...but her English is getting more manglish adalah.

The picture above kat padang bukit jalil on Saturday morning....they just love going to the park in the morning.The above she giggling because I tickle her and she was on her daddy's lap.

Children at the playground

2010-02-24T10:27:00.002+08:00

Love bringing the children to the playground.When I was small I just love the playground in my hometown Muar and anywhere we went late dad will stopped at the playground and to me every kids must spent their childhood time at the playground.
They love usik mengusik each other.

My plants

2010-02-24T10:16:00.002+08:00

I love plants.So I have lots of plants in the house.Sort of give peace when I look at it.So above are new plants in the house sempena CNY ni...

Jiki jiki boom boom

2010-02-23T14:56:00.004+08:00

That's our nick name for him.He is almost 6 months old...and I am missing him all the time.He will give you a big smile if you look at him.Naturally good nature baby and tak bangun malam pun.

He can menyarap now and try to move forward.Its sooooo nice to cium and cuddle him.But I hate it when people asked....ni muka ikut siapa ye?Sis 4 told me that Zikry got the fair skin from hubby dutch /javaness blood.Anyway the blood line was never proven.Anyway he is my baby and he look like me.

My Akmal

2010-02-23T09:46:00.004+08:00

Akmal in the middle with his friends on his last day at the old school.

My Akmal is in boarding school!! I never thought he got it but he was accepted and he wanted to go.I was quite sad but I gave him the choice..if you want to go I support you and if you did not want to go ...its ok.He said..yes he wanted to go.

So we went shopping...kemeja beachlah...can't find it anywhere...light blue kemeja...dark brown and dark blue pants...white baju melayu...t shirt colar...slack...since there should be no jeans at the school...kasut hitam pvc or leatherlah...wah macam macam nak kena beli...then baldilah..sabunlah..hanger....(few days before going he said...why bibik is not in the list to bring!!!)Wakakaka

Non of my siblings went to boarding school so I was a bit scared for him.Will he be able to cope with all the regulations...the food...the rooms....handling his own clothes..but most of it the regulations.He is from a normal school and dok rumah...mana ada regulations semua ni and will there be bully .Actually mommy dia yang lebih lebih suspen..hehehe...

So we sent him all the way to Kedah...Spent 2 days holiday kat penang first....dok gi makan makan sana sini...no bibik...so Zikry kept on losing his pacifier....mami tertinggal botol Zikry kat rumah kawan hubby....mami lupa bagi Zikry makan....kesian zikry.....Anyway..always pening bila gi pool kat hotel kat penang..it always 2 meter so worried about the kids...but actually Akmal n Aqil dah strong swimmers cuma zaki n nabila aje...but I worried....sampai bila mommy ni nak worried pasal all the childrenkan....so I was not relax...some more mommy tak boleh masuk pool sebab kena jaga Zikry.

So we registered....Akmal just bawa himself ...other things he left to me...and mommy kerja lagi...rumah lagi...office daddy lagi....so mommy left out few things....so Akmal did not bring whole lots of documents needed....bagus juga dia masuk asrama...biar dia belajar berdikari...mommy was piss off.At the school we had to buy the special cadar with the school logo...the baju outing...the matress protector...the samping sekolah...oh yes songkok tak bawa...selipar and gambar tak cukup....yes we go around looking for all those things....then daddy said to him...must stay here cannot change your mind already...spent a lot...and he add up everything including 2 days stayed at the hotel...hahahah...that is my hubby the accountant.

So we went back to Kl....bye bye him....he forced a smile...nampak muka stress sikit sebab new enviroment agaknya....mommy okay...but bila reached KL late at night and masuk rumah...I felt a sudden sadness came to me....it is a right decision to sent him to boarding school so early?....just bought a new house but now dah kurang sorang....will he be ok...bro in law said he kena tumbuk kat boarding school and tu biasalah....will my son be ok...can he live with no HP,astro,internet,hot water,aircon,bibik and home cook.Wow...mommy dah sedih.Even flash back hari I gave birth to Akmal....

But slowly I said to myself...Akmal should be ok with all the regulations....he was a prefect in this school....no problem boy...mungkin kat rumah bising but kat sekolah teacher said he kept to himself.....he is very interested to study and change to a better school with more ko kurriculum...he wanted to play hockey seriously....and do well in his studies.He is a red going to black belt tae kwan do...so anyone wanted to tumbuk him....shd think twice...and he is 168cm tall...so anyone nak tumbuk dia should be taller than that.Being independent to take care of himself is a good thing for him...no more bibik to prepare everything for him.So I calmed down.

First 5 days he did not call.I was determine to call the homeroom teacher by the 6th days.Aqil kata...akmal seronok sangat sampai lupa nak call tak?But he called on the 6th days...

So I asked...Senior ada kacau tak....tak.. he said ...buat baik aje....kena basuh baju...tak dobi..tapi seluar dalam tak boleh hantar dobi...makan?TAk sedap ...dia kata...tak ada air sejuk...so he bought kat cafe....weekend keluar?Kat kedai depan aje...tak boleh ke town sebab keluarga tak datang...then he said...mami nak tukar sekolah....why? nak yang dekat rumah....ok mami try minta tukar...kalau tak dapat?tak pa stay sini aje...dia kata...I was relieved!!!

So what I can do now is berdoa banyak banyak yang Akmal is coping well in his new school and dia menjadi insan yang beriman dan berilmu.

In the car sending Akmal.Tengok mata Zaki on the right....tu mata tengah meyakat Nabila yang merajuk tepi kereta.

Saigon 29th Jan - 1st Feb 2010

2010-02-10T09:52:00.005+08:00

Two days after coming back from bali I was of again to go to Ho Chi Minh City Vietnam.Why HCMC?

Okay It all started when Saba invited me to join her and her friends to HCMC.I then invited my mom to follow.When sis heard they wanted to go to.Since Saba's date was not suitable we decided to form our own group and its ladies only.

So mom, me ,sis 1 and sis 3 tag along.Sis 4 could not make it as she will be in Shanghai during that time.I then invited other friends and MY decided to follow.I also decided to bring along Akmal and Aqil.So there are 9 of us and hubby being a travel agent join us with another group of 10 and 2 of his friends relatives decided to join.So in all we had 19 people.

It was all planned quite sometime ago...so nearer to the date I had sis 3 calling me and asking whether we are going to Saigon or Hanoi?And about a day before the trip MY called panicky since she did not prepare anything for the trip.Sis 1 was a bit shocked to hear there will be strangers in the group and Akmal and Aqil asked whether there wil be building in Saigon.Meaning non of them did any research on what is there in Saigon...including me ...I did not know what to expect in Saigon.

Day 1...morning flight...I just realised that I have only 1 pair of disposable contact lense available:(....I can't find my pin tudung
:(.Told hubby not to introduce me to the others as his wife and just introduce D.Ami as the tour leader.I wanted to go for a holiday and not as rep to my hubby's company.heheheh

The plane landed smoothly and I heard Akmal and Aqil said.....yes got building!!(They were not that happy to go to Vietnam...Australia will be more preferable to them...but my policy...jalan 3rd world countries first...then you appreciate the more developed countries.)

Then I heard sis one said....I can see Coach...my god...mata dia punya lah tajam can see the coach logo far away in the duty free building!!

Oh dear i did not have the time to write all the stories day by day...I need to start working.

Akmal at the post office.

Just summary...

We went for the city tour...all the compulsory..reunification palace...post office...notre dame church...the market..the museum..

Akmal n Aqil at reunification palace.I love history.The pictures/stories of the war in the palace and the museum sadden me...

Day 2 ...Mekong delta...we took the boat...then the horse cart ride and the sampan....it was hilarious and awesome...

Day 3 ...chi chu tunnel....we actually crawled in the tunnel....

Then the shopping...there are lots of things to buy in Vietnam and it is affordable....a lot of tudung and baju kurung with beads are from vietnam...malaysian boutique sent it to vietnam to be made for cheaper labour...so there you can purchase it about half the price in Malaysia.So we menggila beli/try tudung...buju kurung with all the beads...telekong....Then there are lots of handicraft too...handbags,slippers,baju with all the sulam sulam and the beads....materials to make baju kurung...linen...cotton....semua murah murah dari malaysia.Not to forget the cotton bed spread...the table clothes....crazy!!!!! So I got everything for everyone and a lot for myself too...except not enough time to choose the slippers with all the beads :(

We also enjoyed meeting new people...we got to know other interesting people in the same group...which is very refreshing and engaging.

We really enjoyed the shopping largely because we went as all ladies only...so no hubby waiting impatiently while we shopped...so we went a bit out of control...me lah especially.Akmal n aqil behaved well and helped us carry stuff.They enjoyed the tunnel.There are 2 other girls in the group...so that make it better for them.

So all in all...it was the best trip ever...saigon did not dissapoint us....we landed safely and sis 3 already asking...lets plan another trip?

....maybe cambodia??? Me in mekong delta...

Bali Jan 2010

2010-01-27T12:12:00.004+08:00

Me and hubby just came back from bali.Booked the tickets quite sometime ago.To go as a couple and left 5 kids at home is no small matter.Lots of things to plan but thanks to my mom ...my mak zah and uncle amir who agreed to look after my kids.

Day 1 Free and easy...round round Kuta area which is near our hotel....lepak kat beach...sea food dinner ...discuss what to do the next 2 days....called supir..call here and there....I wanted cycling tour....hubby disagreed when he heard it 40 km cycling...his knee cannot take it.For a minute..I in the merajuk mode....but then came back to my senses....

Day 2 Supir came at 9am.A day tour to Kintamani for lunch .On the way stop at all the kerajinan...the siver...the ukiran and the painting....then I got hooked with the painting....you know...new house...need new painting....I love the painting of flowers....bamboo...and sea.We end up buying two....

Lunch with the view of the volcano....enjoying the trip so far...tenang bak kata supir withour the kids for me look after.Can talked to hubby without the kids interrupting and concentrate on the things....did not keep on counting the children to make sure everyone is in.

After lunch...went to Ubud...I wanted to see more painting so the supir drop us at another gallery.Got myself another painting.Eeee I am so happy....

Then tanah lot....then dinner at Jimbaran.

Day 2 I wanted to get rid of the supir...I wanted to experience the taxis...busses or whatever...but when the supir heard we wanted to take the taxi...he said he got no job so might as well pay him then paying the taxi.

We wake up late...miss the breakfast...and only got out from the hotel at 11 am.Where to...Nusa dua....end up doing snorkeling glass bottom boat and turtle island. There goes my whitening facial package.

The snorkeling was fun...for once hubby can take care of me and I did not have to look after the kids and worried about them when there are in the water.

We went back quite early with the intention of sopending time at the hotel swimming pool but we had visitor.She's hubby contact in Bali....we only manage to see her on day 2 since she was not well before this.She gave us her car and supir and a free dinner at Sunda's restaurant.

Day 3.Wake up at 3.30am to go to the airport at 4am to catch flight home at 6.05am

It was a most enjoyable trip and for next year we are planning to go to Istanbul.

Zikry 2010

2010-01-22T10:42:00.003+08:00

Ni anak siapa ni? This is the usual question I got if I met people yang dah lama tak jumpa....twice masa kat kenduri kat Batu Pahat.It get me all upset.Am I look too old to become mommy of small baby.My sis said that they all lama tak jumpa you and did not get to see you pregnant so sebab tu they all suprise.Entahlah...

Anyway..It's a plesure to take care of Zikry.He is soooo cute and adorable.So...baik as a baby....Now I am missing him all the time.Busy entertaining hubby and 4 other kids Zikry end up all the time with bibik.For eg...at 4 mths he can start soft food...I feed him the first day...and the rest of the time bibik feed him..Bibik also bathe and clean him and last night bibik slept with him to practice when I am not around this weekend for my bali trip.Yes yes..mommy keluar masuk rumah macam lightning and not enough time for Zikry.Usually I will try to spend my night with him...but what with helping NAbila and zaki with their school work and sending them for tuition and ngaji....not much time left for Zikry....sedih pulak rasanya.

Hubby and I favourite game will be ...masa zikry tahun satu..kita umur berapa ye etc etc....will we look like grandparent rather than parent when we sent him to school...hehehe....Semuga we all panjang umur to see Zikry grow up to be an adult.Zikry boom boom mommy!!!

Nabila 2010

2010-01-22T10:32:00.002+08:00

New kindy for her...last year after 3 months in her play school she can speak manglish fluently so now in the new kindy with mandarin as the medium of instruction I wanted to see whether she can pick up the language after 3 months.....

She cried every morning....she is taking forever to get dress.....and she end up late for school.She got lots of homework...so mommy been doing lots of colouring and a A B C.....hehehhe

Last week her old kindy insulted me....she still went there for her reading classes once a week.The new owner was talking to me..

Teacher: Nabila follow you or the father?

Me: Why?

Teacher:Nolah...but she is sooo beautiful.....and Auntie MChing said that her brother is even more beautiful....blah blah...

Me: "speechless" (In My Head) hello !!! don't you see the mommy infront of you!! this is where the beauty come fromlah!!!

Zaki 2010

2010-01-18T12:53:00.003+08:00

I have to go through everything yang I go through with Akmal and Aqil again with Zaki...kelas ngaji...swimming class...school holiday programme...art class...tuition class and soon UPSR.Come to think of it... the cycle kena ulang balik for Nabila....then Zikry...this is what happen when you have anak yang jaraknya jauh jauh.

But kesian juga kat zaki...we the parent are super duper busy.Swimming class kat bukit jalil at 2pm...at 1.30pm we all entah kat mana mana di lembah kelang and had to call sis to tolong hantarkan....so we had to discontinued the class.Mommy and daddy just cannot make it to sent him.Kesian dia...selalu tanya pasal swimming class dia.At the moment still thinking and looking for a better place and better timing.

Since dia nampak minat melukis so we enroll dia art class on Sunday 10pm.Itu pun gilir gilir ambik with sis sis sebab their son and daughter pun join.SO better arrangementlah.

He remained in his tahfiz school even though the cousins all decided to change to sek ugama rakyat.I am impressed that he not main ikut his cousins aje and I am happy that he is in iqrak 6 .

School ...hahaha...what with sek ugama ptg and ngaji malam...frankly speaking tak sempat nak tengok buku dia sgt.Zaki pun cepat mengantuk after ngaji kelas...Try to sit with him on Thursday and Friday bila dia tak ada ngaji...still trying...hehehe

I pray everyday that as he grow older he will be more mature and worried about his school work and less usik Nabila.

Aqil 2010

2010-01-05T09:52:00.003+08:00

Aqil is in form 2 and has learning disabilities and everyday Iam finding ways to help him improve.He still can't study on his own and his result is a shock to the system.

We discussed his plan for future...what is it that he wanted to do after SPM....so in order to do that what stream he needed to be in and what kind of result he needs for his PMR.This way he will have a clear vision of his future.He is just like me when I was small...what he needed is to find his way of studying and remembering facts.

AQil is more out going person.Like shopping and to be involved with friends. He introduced his father car rental business to his school and last year the school rent our van for school activities . So marketing can be his line.

Yesterday I was quite dissapointed with him...due to late registration at the tuition centre all the classes he wanted to sign up is full!!!

He is not comfortable reading....is there anywhere people sell all the PMR subject in audio...so he will just listen to them.I know they do it oversea...to help student like him.....I wonder........................

Akmal 2010

2010-01-05T09:26:00.003+08:00

Lets just write down my hope and expectation and also plan for 2010.

With 6 As and 2 Bs...akmal is going to pure science class.Boarding school is out... with that kind of result and hubby is not keen to sent him to boarding / technical school anymore after he sat next to a well known motivator from Istanbul to KL who told him about not so good side of children staying away from home.So he will be with us for another 2 years.Insyallah and I am happy.

His school is not bad also.He mix with students from all races...speak manglish at school...a prefect with uniform as if it is winter.(They wear vest everyday...and on Monday...they wear the vest and blazer)He play hockey and chess for his school .Being a non boarding students too I sort of knew what to expect.There will not be much studying in school and tuition play a vital role.They can be distracted quite easily with friends.Wanting to lepak with friends is a norm but Akmal is a homely person.During the school holiday he asked twice to go out with his friend.One to Sunway lagoon and another to the movie.I sent and pick him up on both occasions.The friends were all of other races and his tuition centre I have chosen ..he will be the minority race.This way tak banyak idea in his head.My theorylah.

What I want him to improve is that to be more independent and brave.He did not like the public bus....smelly and weird people inside ..he said.He don't know where pudu raya is.He don't know how to go anywhere on his own....

What I am rambling about......I sent ...pick him up anywhere he wanted to go and I expect him know how to go anywhere on his own.....maybe I should let go.If not when he's in Uni...he will ask me to sent him...pick him up....buy him a car....I can see that's happening!!!!